By 1997 I had 3 children the yougest pictured below came with me to La leche meetings and breast feeding support groups proudly wearing her fashion statement and supporting my efforts to encourage others to find ways to encourage easier breastfeeding and I worked hard to get breastfeeding accepted in public.
The next photos show just how much I have changed since eliminating chemicals from my home and they make me smile. At the end of the day I put my body through 15 pregnancies, had 6 beautiful children. Was able to deliver all of them naturally with weights from 5lbs through to 13 lbs8 and breast fed 5 . I could not feed my youngest and it was very hard for me to cope with bottle feeding. I came home with bottles a sterilizer and all I could do was cry. My 6th baby in my arms wailing and I had been given medication to dry my milk as I was not to feed this baby. It was the toughest thing not to do what came naturally to me and place her on my breast. But I had no choice.This year for Valentines day I had a single rose sent to my husband to remind him of this special day x
The first time I felt inadequate as a mother was on coming home with my 6th child. I resorted to pre mixed formula and felt a failure. I look back now and realise how silly that was as many people are not able to breastfeed for one reason or another and there are just as many who choose not to do it. It just seemed weird , previously when I was healthy I could have been sent out to water the garden with the ammount of milk I was producing . Like most parenting styles everyone has their own and everyone makes mistakes. But everything happens for a reason and when my youngest came prematurely and I had been on such a lot of medication I had to agree with the doctors that for her breast was not best at least not mine.
My youngest child was a blessing as had it not been for that pregnancy they may never have discovered the cancer in my cervix so quickly.She was delivered safely and I had a hysterectomy.
She is 8 now and I am making up for lost time and making her memory box too. Determined to pop something else other than the article in which they banned me from the school run for placing her on my knee to cross the school carpark so I could access the pavement to go home .
DO you have moments when you pretend to be NORMAL how has that worked for you?